Okay, so now I am officially diagnosed with a mental illness. But what does that mean? I know, the old story, it has never changed. My life with depression has been well... depressingly painful. Mostly painful because those around me don't understand it. Indeed I don't understand it myself. How does one describe the food one is tasting for the first time to someone who has never tasted it either? They can't uunderstand my experience, because they aren't in the same experience. It's only illogical to assume otherwise. All I can say is this , my depression, is well painful; emotionally exhaustive, and yes there is some physical pain; but as I said in another thread; i'd gladly take physical pain over this mental illness any day. This mental illness that has consumed me, am I really mentally ill? Either way, mentally ill or not; I am not recieving the right treatment. I know by the results. The medicine is only temporary, and it takes 4 to 8 weeks to work, so they say. They don't seem to understand what I try to explain, I must get better... even a slight improvement would be a miracle... or I must get worse so that they'll finally see the help I truly need (though I don't wish for that.) The progress must begin now, I fear, or I'll fall apart more so than I have already done, and be in a worsened condition. If I truly do have a severe mental health issue, then I need the proper care. But how does do that with no income? How does one do that, when the people around are either in denial, or don't know?
Official Diagnoses: ADHD Moderate (though I know otherwise... I just hide it well
) Depression Severe; Anxiety Disorder Moderate (Though I know otherwise witht his one too.) I'm not speaking of institutionalization. But can I use LOA to create proper care for me, so that I can get back on my feet? Can I use LOA to make my symptoms decrease? Or do I just learn to live with it?