[vir_maha]

hi,

I have previously posted some thread regarding my problems but still I can't able to get over them.

I think my thoughts and my attitude towards life and other people is killing me. I have been to many psychiatrists, taken all type of anti depressants and tranquilizers but they don't have any affect on my thoughts and my attitude. My thoughts overshadows all effects of medicines(which i think).

I worry a lot, hell lot. I can't able to focus, I lost 8 jobs in past 2 years because I think I am having social anxiety disorder and can't concentrate on my work, sometimes I hate people around me specially females. When someone talking and laughing beside me I get irritated and anxious.

When I meet some strangers, I run out of my words ..I really don't know what to say..I keep on worrying what he or she would be thinking of me that i can't able to communicate.

Sometimes I think I can't able to hold responsibility of anything in Life, I don't have good sense of humor and when some girl says this i keep demoralizing myself as a dump person.

And the root cause of these problems which I analyze is family problems i faced when i was a child. Problems were sort out after five years but inbetween I lost all my confidence and filled with worry and fear.

Now these problems are rooted in my personality to such an extent that I can't able to get rid of them.

To sum up my problem, it goes like this..

what happens if i do this and it goes otherwise, what if i get a job and can't able to do my best, what will happen if while driving a car i met with an accident, on my wedding day if i don't look good than what people will say, what if i can't make my wife happy...blah blah blah....and it goes on ..day, night, 365 days a year..and still going on....

Please help...i don't know how you help by simply putting your motivational thoughts.