| | "Night terrors", nagual, alternate worlds; have you experienced this?
I have asked people over the years if they had experiences similar to those I had between the ages of 8 and 13. So far no one has reported similar ones. I would like to hear from anyone who has had these experiences....
I am lying in bed, waiting to go back to sleep. I had awakened and had gone to the bathroom. I can see that the hall light is on- I always insisted that it be left on all night. Then, as my mind slowly shifts to the sleeping mode, a noise begins inside me. Frightened, I try to move and get fully awake, but it is too late. As it happened many times before, I am unable to move, but still see my room lit by the hall light. A horrible feeling is filling my being, and I feel a strong vibration. I want to cry for help, but cannot make a sound. The noise becomes a loud roaring, and I am pulled away from my world, into a frightening and incomprehensible realm. There are no forms, as in my world; only phantom shapes that have properties that terrify me- later I would think of it as a realm of geometrical principles; infinitely large forms, infinitessimal things, a plane that is so thin that it passes through me, although I no longer have a body. I can somehow feel the thinness, and the feeling is awful. There are shapes that are immense, and I am so tiny that I feel like an atom, pressed against a planet. The closeness is terrifying! There are other things, but I cannot describe them or think about them. None of the forms suggest animate beings, and nothing threatens me, but the fear of being lost in this incomprehensible world is the most terrifying thing that I will ever experience in my life to come. There is a sense of life and death about it all.
My fingers look like extremely thin sticks. I am in the bathtub, sitting in warm water. I am calming down, and sitting very still. The water surface becomes very smooth, and I fear it will penetrate me- I scream and splash wildly. There was no way to tell my parents what had happened to me. After a while, I am once again in bed, and afraid I will be drawn into that abstract world again, but this time I finally fall into a normal sleep.
I had many of these terrifying experiences, perhaps once a month, between the age of eight and thirteen. My parents considered these episodes to be nightmares, but I know they were something else. I have asked many people if they had similar experiences, but have not found anyone who can describe anything remotely like them. They remain a mystery to me. How could a little boy who had no intellectual concepts of infinity and geometry, have experiences of them?
Last edited by jsam; 04-20-2008 at 05:01 PM.