When I say feelings, I don't mean emotions, I mean something more like gut feeling or intuition if you will. Just that something feels like right, that I should be doing it, that I'm tugged one way but not the other.
And it's not like I'm about to kill anyone either. Although you can of course take everything to the extremes. I mean more like taking the other route, doing things my own way(which can be somewhat illogical then..).
I guess I lack the power to force my own way through... - but even if I do, that would make me immature again. |