 in the same boat
i'm 45 and been happily married 18 yrs and am still feeling insecurities. my husband is an extremely outgoing, funloving person and i am extremely shy. to this day i struggle when he goes back to his hometown and hooks up with some old friends from school, some of which are old girlfriends or gets emails from other women from his past. I know its all innocent, but it hurts me for some reason. my reasoning is i would not put myself in that position to for him to even think that i was talking to another man. however, he wouldnt care if I did. I cant seem to get to that point of not caring if he talks to other women. I know exactly how you feel. Someone posted that you dont "own" anyone, and I guess my thinking is i thought I did. evan after 18 yrs i am still learning how not to be insecure. but, i've finally decided to let go, and that I dont have control over anything or anyone but myself. this has just come about as of yesterday. At least you are learning this lesson while you're still young, because its tough going through most of your life feeling insecure.
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