Steve: I really love this post. I think I have Lightworker Syndrome to a certain degree.
I am a Master Sergeant in the U.S. Air Force. I am getting close to retirement. For years, I have been thinking "I can't wait until I can retire, so I can do what I WANT TO DO". But, I got real hung up (and I still am) on what to do after I retire. I want to "follow my bliss" like everyone says, but on a day-to-day basis, I am too wiped out by doing my best at being an Air Force guy to have time to take any action on ideas (go back to college, work on business ideas, etc...all the ego excuses) So, instead of beating myself up about it, I am just going to accept that while I'm in the Air Force, I have to be totally committed to it. When I'm done, I will figure out what to do next.
I also wanted to tell a little story about a recent experience. My AF job is running a network "Help Desk" for about 250 users. Usually, I don't get caught up in the drama of all the users calling and asking for help on a Monday morning, but last Monday, I had just returned from leave to find out that most of my helpdesk techs were out of the office for various reasons. So, for all day Monday and Tuesday, I was helping people NONSTOP!!! You might think that this would made me stressed out and frustrated, but it didn't....I was energized! I loved helping everyone, and catching up with everyone after being gone for about 20 days. In the past, before I started changing my beliefs, I would have thought..."wow! that was a bad day!", but now I realized that I LOVED IT.
The point is, I am ON purpose everyday. Helping people. That's it. That's what lightworkers do. They might get paid for it, they might not. I just figured out that it doesn't matter who pays me, or what I wear to work, or if I even have a job. If I am helping people, I am on purpose and the Universe loves it and I do too.
When I retire, I want to help more people. I intend to help as many people as possible, just like you Steve. I will let the Universe figure out the HOW.
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