Firstly: Hi! First post of mine!
Well, straight: How is "keep diligently working on your own personal growth" accountable as lightwork? It always had hit me as darkwork---mainly because previous polarization posts took everything more neutral (as already mentioned).
I always thought: If I am going to study instead of giving something, I am doing darkwork, ie. absorbing things from world, without giving anything in return. Of course, viewing things this simply is stupid, because any work would be considered light, which is not true.
So, the only (new) idea I took from this post is that neutrality is impossible, and it really struck me. Came here to say it. I always thought of myself as darkworker inclined---because of always studying and not much caring about returning care effectively.
Just to try and make things clearer: Iīve always thought of this topic in this light (which held still ītill today): There are two "axes", which are parallel:
giving - taking; and,
love - fear
lightworkers would be givers and lovers, and darkworkers, takers and fear-driven. But it isnīt so: Only the love-fear axis is important.
To put simply: I feel I am a taker, not a giver, but as much as I like getting stuff/love (studying is something I feel in this way: itīs love written), I also note I like to take fear *
away*. Just not sure what to do with this, but glad to know it already. Thanks, Steve, I owe you this.
But, now to try and finish this, in a little distinction about the love-fear axis: what matters is not the relation one perceives from reality but what he
does. Loving is taking others into account, fearing is letting only oneself emerge and control (important word). One can says he is a lover and talk about caring, but if this one spends more than half his time in defensive mode, he cares more about himself than others, so this is fear. Thatīs where stands most politicians and myself also.
This is why I think itīs too confusing: From the reality we are, thereīs too much difficulty in trying to stand well and healthy without feeling like youīre a darkworker yourself (you may have loving-objectives, but your action is fear-driven mainly: survive in lone-mode against the world)---which helps to maintain the feeling itīs the only way there is---and consequently feeling lightworkers are nut people who are somehow lucky for being able to live in this kinda different reality of their own.
In the end, I am not sure if I could explain this point as I tryied.