I'm so befuzzled by it all. When reading the stuff about darkworkers I felt it really resonated with me... yeah, I'm not afraid to admit it, though my deceptive darkworker sense is telling me not to- I DO want to be powerful. And there is a side to me that doesn't care about anyone else... and I began to feel really good. I mean really seriously fantastic at the idea of crushing my way to power. But asking myself if I was happy to hurt other people the answer was a resounding NO. I had started feeling so good that I started thinking in a kind of reluctant way...well I probably should do something positive with my life. And not because I've been taught to... it actually felt like my "conscience" becoming active.
Now I don't know what to think...
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