Ookami-san,
You are at 1 on a 1 to 10 scale? Great! You can only get better.
I do not mean to demean you. I do mean the first step is to embrace where you are and who you are, right now, as you are.
Self-esteem is often a misleading concept. The "esteem" part make us think we must be something worthy, do some goods, or have some goods. No. You are a wonderful being as you are right now. So I prefer to use the word "Self -Love"
The worst thing you can do now is to beat yourself up. Sit still and know that love surrounds you.
From this place, you are free to "improve" yourself in any way you like. I would start by finding what you are doing right and deepening that to find your strengths.
I hope this helps.
Blessings,
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