[Spartan]

Do you hate yourself? Or do you hate your situation and inability to change it?

You are right to be jealous of your little sister if she is living a life you desperately want. You probably share at least half of her genetics, so it's only natural that you compare yourself to her. And you are right to want a boyfriend even when you feel like there is no hope of geting one, or you aren't ready for one. Nature has selected genetics that make us constantly yearn for someone to procreate with.

I think that the reason why so many people hate themselves is because they feel powerless, powerless to change their life situation and powerless to achieve the goals they desperately want to achieve.

I feel powerless about some things, but I try not to lose hope - because I know that things must change eventually.

Society has evolved so much, but we haven't evolved with it. Things are much more complicated than they were thousands of years ago, or even decades ago. So it is harder to get the things we want.