I'm trying my hardest to stay calm and not do anything stupid (famous last words), but something just happened. I participated in
ALG's LoA experiment (but forgot to post a message in his thread
). I'm a little more than three years away from finishing college (the Dutch version, I'm not sure 'college' is the right translation actually), but don't want to get a job after I'm done. It's mainly a 'back-up' plan in case I do need to become a wage slave for a while.
I don't want to work for someone else, but myself! I want to start my own business, do freelance work, as long as I am my own boss. I'll still need to obey others (my clients), but when I do so, at least it will be for my own gain and not someone else's. I want to sell value, not time.
Anyway, I never said what exactely I wanted to do. I just visualized my goal and let the universe take care of it. And I think that just happened.
I was chatting with someone I met this morning on a forum. We were talking about websites and other things, and it was an interesting conversation. I turned off my computer when it was time for dinner and when I turned it back on and checked the forum, I saw that he had send me a PM, asking me out of the blue if I was interested in building his small business a website.
Uhm, whoa...! Not so fast, Universe!
My stomach nearly turned as I began to imagine all kinds of horror scenarios and what-ifs. What should I ask? How do I handle this when it comes to taxes? Should I draft a contract? What should that contract look like? What if he doesn't pay? I'm a bit rusty when it comes to HTML... what if it's too difficult? What if I can't pull it off? What if I get too frustrated? Do I even have the time for this project at all?! What if.....?
I was about to reply and turn him down, when I remembered something I read on another website: when the universe offers you a chance, you don't take a rain check. And that any problems will work themselves out.
I haven't responded yet, and I figure I can sleep on it at least for tonight and let it sink in. But I have this constant feeling of fear that I'm not ready, that this could lead to even bigger projects and that I'll end up way in over my head. What should I do? Turn down the offer and wait until I feel like I've done adequate research on how to handle this and bigger offers that might follow (I don't want to be caught off-guard)? Or should I just go for it and trust the LoA that any info I need will find its way to me?
I have the feeling this is the start of something bigger and that once I accept the offer, the ball will continue to roll and there will be no stopping it... or starting over a second time if I fail. What do I do?!
Sigh...
