[uberinquisitive]

I'm procrastinating like crazy.

I write some crazy awesome erotica, which I'm selling as e-stories for $1.99 each. The website is in the final stages of testing, and all of a sudden, I'm afraid to start promoting.

First off, the fact that it is erotica - I was totally down with it, and everyone who knows about my project is eager for my stuff. But now, I have writer's block from hell. Writer's block has never been a problem for me before.

I'm afraid of being judged. My stories are explicit - not in disgusting ways, and yet I worry that I'll be judged as being a total perv. I'm female, for god sakes, I shouldn't have to worry about this! And yet, I do.

I'm afraid the product isn't "good enough." As in, I'm so hypercritical about my porn writing. I do other types of writing, and I'm not critical about those at all. But my porn writing - I scrutinize every line and feel like it's not literary and cool and well-written enough.

I'm also afraid I won't be successful at this. This is my first business, and I'm afraid of the amount of work that needs to go into the site. I have to write content...promote...promote some more...but what about all my other writing? What about my life?

But...the business hasn't even really begun, and I'm projecting how much it will intrude in my life!

It took me 2 month to open up a business bank account (for my paypal cart). I'm dragging out every step as much as possible.

Thing is, I've wanted to open this sort of e-business for years. I've had so much encouragement from others, also. And when I finally get the chutzpah to go after it - I've become my ultimate (and only) enemy.

Thanks for letting me vent.