I believe I am; or at the very least I have very strong feelings for her that reach to the core of my being. She's so incredibly lovely, in my eyes, and I kinda feel like a puppy dog near her; though I have enough self-control not to fawn over her or chase her around. In any-case, she's unobtainable (married). Looking in to her eyes, I get the impression she likes me too, but she's a very likable person and is friendly with everyone.
In contrast to how I feel about her, for most other women, I feel nothing. They don't set me on fire, light up my soul, it's not the same. So as I was dancing with other ladies (as happens at salsa parties), though I completely love the dancing, and am respectful and friendly with them all, I don't want to escalate things to a relationship or sex with them. I guess they don't engage the fullness of my being, like this other woman does; and that's what I want. I think it's what we all want, deep down.
So the woman I really like, I also love dancing with her, she's one of the top dancers in the local scene; god she's fun to dance with ...
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