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I am residing in my personal power and trusting in myself but it HURTS that I don't have the support of my SO.
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This doesn't sound like personal power to me.
I've been recently in your shoes. I stopped contacting the guy about a month ago. Highly unusual behavior for me, the typical "let's talk about it" girl.
Basically, I was tired of spending my precious energy trying to convince him to change his opinion of me. You know what? He's allowed his opinion. I may not agree with it. In fact, I may think he's flat out wrong. But then again - why would I want to be with someone who sees me very differently from how I now see myself?
Instead of trying to convince him, I decided to convince ME. I've spent the last month diligently reading and journaling and doing everything I can to pull my ♥♥♥♥♥ together. I'm not even worried about him. I can't afford to. I'm trying to steer my ship a whole different direction, and it requires all my godd*mn attention. And...don't I deserve to place myself as first priority?!
The way I see it, I'm in a win-win situation. I focus on myself completely and create a dream life, no matter what. Now, if this guy is a winner, then he'll realize that I'm strong and awesome for making these changes, and come back to me. Or, he'll continue to hold onto the old me. It's his choice. I have no power over him. I only have power over myself.
Either way, focus on yourself. Actions speak louder than words. Consistent actions speak loudest of all.