Hm, well, I'm back from work now and while you've made it clear that you're not interested in continuing what you started, I do want to point something out that no one else has.
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Originally Posted by Jamie  There really is very little bitterness in me, and it only comes up if I dwell on, or think about the situation. |
This is bitterness.
Ignoring the fact that you're bitter doesn't make you less bitter; it makes you
more bitter. You do not solve a problem by sweeping it under the rug; you solve it by facing it, getting hurt, and dealing with it.
You are no longer bitter when you dwell on, or think about, it and find that it's not very interesting because it's a past event in your life that no longer holds any power over you.
While I really don't care how you choose to live your life--it's your life--I think you do yourself a disservice not to acknowledge that you retain a secret pain.
I was briefly inclined to respond to each of your paragraphs in detail, but I think you'd rather I didn't, may it help you or not.
I'll simply end with this:
9—Enneagram Type Nine: The Peacemaker-Overview
While I am entirely unqualified to guess at your Enneagram Type (ignoring the trifling detail of whether or not the system is valid), I think that reading that webpage will give you insight into yourself and aid you in your growth.