Originally Posted by stevedevane
That inner truth has often made me more than a little uncomfortable. Here's an example: during my search, one thing I realized is that I've often belittled other people in an effort to make myself look better. Brought me down for a while until I realized that now that I know that I have a tendency to do that, I can stop it. Not easy and not a done deal, but it is an important first step.
The realizing is awareness. It is not you trying to think differently and conjuring up certain kinds of thoughts. The thoughts that try to make you better than some one else, thinking that will produce joy - is an experiment in ego land. If you did not bring awareness to this you could keep doing those habits and feel good about yourself until someone else can't be belittled and you'd have stress.