m18pak, what you're describing sounds a lot like a psychoenergetic reversal
. This is when someone keeps getting bad results or sabotaging themselves despite all their conscious efforts. The PER theory says that it's indeed a matter of energy like you said, it's when the energy is polarized in the wrong direction. There are ways to cure it, for example with kinesiology or EFT
. See this article
If you're suffering from a PER, I strongly recommend learning EFT or seeing an energy therapist. There is also a great kinesiology exercise to eliminate psychoenergetical reversals, I couldn't find it online though. Feel free to PM me if you're interested in learning it.
Take care though, one of the causes for PERs (among others, see article) is chronic negative thoughts. So, like others have said, choose your thougths consciously. What you're saying in your post doesn't sound very positive.
Originally Posted by m18pak
Either way, it seems like there is always something that stymies our heroic attempts to change for the better. We try and try again, but it makes no difference. We read books and listen to tapes and watch videos to learn more and more, but it makes no impact.
If this is what you believe, then it's also what you'll get!
You all know what I mean.
There is a way out. I had a PER and my life was so crappy that I almost killed myself a few years ago. Now I'm pretty happy with my wonderful new life, and it's getting better and better. For me personally, PD does work tremendously.
I'm talking about how you resolve to break your bad habits and set new ones, visualize every day, exercise every day, be in the now all the time, always take the enlightened perspective on any situation etc etc...but somehow it just never happens.
Well... if I tried to force myself to do all that every day
, all the time
, and always
, I'd feel some resistance too. Start cool?
You make all these promises to yourself to change for the better and when game time comes you inevitably end up sliding back down into the negative patterns that have shaped and defined your life.
If you make to yourself the promise to change for the better, this implies that you're not good now. Which is not nice towards yourself - and it's a negative thinking. So it's not surprising that you slide back down into negativity: you never left it.