[Rockchick26]

Originally Posted by Silent Lucidity

One thing, you want to get up and practice with band-mates all the time and then tour, but you are afraid to play in front of anyone? Can you play in front of band-mates if you had them? That is the first thing to solve.

Well it would be different if i was with other people who are doing it too,but to be put on the spot being the only one singing or playing,i cant do it. I dont like attention on me. But if i was playing in a band,as part of a group,blending in,that's entirely different. I can sing karaoke with the music loud and other people are singing too,but i cant sing in my piano teachers basement with her family upstairs able to hear. Totally two different situations.

You got a piano, but now can't afford lessons? Why not get a cheap keyboard and speakers, and then afford more lessons? Have you thought along these lines?

My piano i've had for 3 years (and it was only $200),and my financial situation just changed recently,so no,i can't afford $100 a month lessons anymore. And i DO have a cheap keyboard but it only has half the keys my piano has,and it sounds like crap. Once you've had a real piano,you can't go back LOL

You call yourself a grandma, but you're only 35. Please be kind to yourself 35 is not old by anyone's standards.

LOL Well,actually,i have a friend who calls me "granny"! No i am NOT a grandma,but realisticly,i can't go from beginner to good enough,by the time i'm 40. And that is not a good age to get into music. People would think of me as a wannabe. That would be like a 70 year old retired plumber suddenly wanting to run for president. He doesnt have the experience to do it and everyone would be like,'well why didnt you do this 40 years ago!?'

I know to be big you have to be 18 and brilliant and on idol, but the music scene is huge. There is room for everyone.

If there is room for everyone then why dont ALL bands make it big? Record labels know they can only sign a certain amount of artists at a time.

Maybe you could find a niche as a somewhat big performer, sucessful, but not -quite- top 40. What genre of music do you want to play?

Rock,different variations on it...yeah maybe i could find a niche but i just wish i was a teenager again so i could go to school for this right of high school,and practice more,then i would have made it years ago. I just feel too old because i wasted so much time doing NOTHING. I literally spent like 15 years of my life spending money on buying new vehicles,and spending my love on a guy that never loved me back. I could have used that money for school and i could have used that love for MUSIC. UGH! That is what really kills me.

It sounds like you really want the social aspect of music, that's just the feeling I'm getting from you. If you cant get past playing in front of people, would you consider managing, being a roadie, or working in a recording studio? You could retrain for one of those things pretty easily... like a 2 year sound engineering course or something.

Yeah i've even thought of that,going to school for audio engineering,thats when i realized i didnt have the money and couldn't afford to be in debt. You dont make a lot of money doing those jobs,especially not the roadie thing. In fact roadies dont even get paid,if they do they were hired by a big band for it. Most roadies are just friends of the band. Managing is a bit much for me,i kinda had it narrowed down to either music journalist or audio engineer.

the 'belting' thing has me worried. Please be sure you don't damage your voice. If it hurts, stop singing. It sounds like you may be pushing chest voice into head voice.

No it's never HURT to sing,sometimes it just feels like i'm pushing my throat up out of my mouth LOL But my voice sounds amazing when i do that! I did take voice lessons for a few months and she told me not to do that,but i suck when i sing quietly,like i'm just breathing the words out,like i'm too afraid to really sing. No i've never even seen Steve's excerise,you mean it's a singing one? I have a few books on it,i have cd's on it,and i did the lessons..but i find nothing resonates with me,i dont feel like i'm doing it right unless i'm doing it how its comfortable for me. I didnt notice any progression with the cd's,books,or lessons. I only notice progression when i crank music and sing along with it,loud.