[m18pak]

I think it's an escapable rule of life that there is always more than meets the eye to anything, and self-improvement is no exception. When people first discover it and are open to its ideas and promises they get almost ecstatic over how it seemingly is the panacea to all their problems. But then they try to actually do it, to change their lives and themselves, only to be met with insurmountable resistance that beats them down and defeats their best efforts. Some then give up, and some persevere on with grim determination.

Either way, it seems like there is always something that stymies our heroic attempts to change for the better. We try and try again, but it makes no difference. We read books and listen to tapes and watch videos to learn more and more, but it makes no impact. You all know what I mean. I'm talking about how you resolve to break your bad habits and set new ones, visualize every day, exercise every day, be in the now all the time, always take the enlightened perspective on any situation etc etc...but somehow it just never happens. You make all these promises to yourself to change for the better and when game time comes you inevitably end up sliding back down into the negative patterns that have shaped and defined your life. It's like you can see what the problem is, see what you need to do to solve it, and then for some reason you just can't take the necessary action to solve it. It's like your brain has a mind of its own and when the time comes it just treacherously thwarts your intentions, no matter what you do or how hard you try.

I think a lot of people here will understand what I'm talking about, understand the sheer frustration of banging your head against the wall and getting nowhere. It's almost like self-improvement only works for some people and not others, like some people can make change but others are blocked from making change because of invisible barriers in the world that some can pass and others can't.

So why is this? Why do some people make progress relatively easily while others get nowhere despite pushing themselves to the max? I think the answer is that we humans are far more complex organisms than we take into account, namely that we have an energetic field around us that influences our thoughts, feelings, actions, and the situations that we manifest. This aura I believe is an integral part of our being, and influences everything we do. We all know that everything is energy (E=mc2) and as such what happens is that our thoughts, speech, and actions generate subtle energies that color our auras. So for example an person who generally has a lot of angry thoughts, feelings etc will generate more and more anger energy in his aura until eventually it "vibrates" at an anger "frequency". What then happens is that his aura will subtly influence his subconscious mind and emotional nature to make him even more prone to anger, as well as drawing the energy of anger from his surroundings since like attracts like.

What I'm trying to say is that the reason self-improvement fails in a lot of cases is because the person consciously decides to change for the better, but his personal energies are so strongly negative and the effect they have on him is so strong that they eventually pull him back down to where he was before despite his best efforts. To use an analogy imagine that the person is trying to walk one way, but there is a huge magnet behind him and he happens to be carrying a backpack full of metal. What happens is that the magnet exerts a pull on him that is too strong to resist, so as long as he's determinedly struggling up the path he'll make headway, but as soon as he stops to rest the magnet will drag him right back to square one. Because the energy in your aura influences your thoughts and emotions as soon as you stop consciously forcing yourself to think one way, your thoughts will inevitably be pulled back into the old mental patterns, and you'll end up acting exactly like you did before.

On a sidenote this is also why I think LoA does not work for some people, because they have so much negative energy in their auras that it nullifies any positive intentions they try to set.