I "stumbled" upon Steve Pavlina's article about sleep pattern two weeks ago. (late march, 2008)--literally stumbled. I came across it from my "StumbleUpon" account, because one of my interests is health/fitness, and sleep. I am so grateful that I came to his site, and believe that it could possibly be more meaningful than a randomly generated page...
I first started out reading just the "how to become an early-riser." I read it, believed in the sense of it, and thought of a friend of mine who is a perfect real-life example of the early-riser idea. Being at a competitive program as a college freshman, my schedule has been all over the place in the last...seven months since i came to school. I am still currently working on becoming an early-riser, but am confident that i can succeed.
I noticed after a few days that there were dozens more blogs to be read....and thus my reading began.
I could not have picked a better time to have found such an uplifting and motivating site...This February, my dad told my mother that he was in love with another woman, and that he didn't want to be married anymore, after 25 years of marriage. My two older sisters and I were devastated and confused, considering it seemed like such a soap-opera style shocker. I have since discovered that my dad cheated on my mom ages before, after the oldest, Caitlin was born, AND that two of my uncles have had similar cheating episodes but instead stayed together with their wives, deciding to keep it hush-hush rather than tell everyone in the church and school community, like my mom has felt the need to. Caitlin broke up with her high school/college boyfriend of 5 years (they started senior year of h.s. and made it through college before deciding they were not on the same page anymore) back in December, and I have just now broken the heart of my boyfriend of three years, also from my high school. We have had many ups and downs, and I'm still very muddled about what to do...he does not want anything to do with me right now, which i understand...but I miss his friendship at the very least, and wish I could talk to him sometimes.
Unfortunately, part of the reason we broke up was because i expressed interest in another guy here at my school (my boyfriend goes to another college)...I had decided to stick with my boyfriend, but he does not trust me at all now, and does not understand how i could have possibly ever loved him. I'm simplifying all of this, of course, but I can't even begin to get into all the issues. The worst part is that I felt like i inherited my father's "cheating gene" or something, and that I will inevitably mess up every relationship i get into. I am trying to release this mindset, as it is clearly negative and unhealthy, but I am still also struggling with how to move forward in terms of my ...ex...boyfriend. wow, it feels weird to say ex.
I look forward to being a part of this forum, and having a support system, as well as Steve's messages of inspiration to get me through. And don't worry, I also have a system of sisters and friends to talk to as well.
This is a time of MANY changes, and momentous ones at that, but I believe I am ready to take them on, with help and support. Wish me luck on my journey!