Yes, as I mentioned in my last post, people don't always access the love and joy I'm generating! And all I can do, in feeling good and living on purpose, is to keep on generating.... and maybe seeing how I can be more effective and accessible. Growth, baby. The meaning of communication is the response, I've read. Fortunately for me, I'm fairly satisfied each night (most nights!) that I've been a love and joy generator, and people's response helps me to be present to it. Still, I would love to be effective enough as a generator for you to be able to feel my love and joy.
To your questions: I don't bother about being a "good" or "bad" person. Those aren't judgements that concern me. Being appreciated? I LOVE being appreciated! It feels so good! Appreciating feels even better. Appreciation and gratitude, in and out, they're both great components of generating love and joy. Being under- or over-appreciated? That doesn't mean anything to me. The appreciation I feel for others, and the appreciation others feel for me, is exactly the right amount. Mom and Dad? They loved me exactly the right amount, too. Still do, in a weird way... they sometimes show up in my dreams to let me know or help me out. (I'm an orphan.)
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