[vapourmile]

Well, that's very cool. Although I think you missed the distinction I way making. I read you posting. Eloquent it was too. What I'm missing is the love and joy. The explanation is fine, but it's dry. I'm reading all these great ambitions. But I'm not feeling it. Joy and the feeling of being loved is not coming across. It's a hell of a concern if you're trying all these things and you can't actually do it. I would wonder how much of this flows from something a lot more basic. Say, from the need to feel appreciated as a good person?

I'd ask you a much simpler question: How much do you need to feel your parents love?

Or, to put it another way: How much under appreciated are you?

Maybe you feel over appreciated and you've got to do something to justify it?

PS. I'd imagine she'll stay single for about a microsecond.