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I'd also ask you if you are active in creating this joy for other people, or if you mostly just hope to experience it for yourself? or if it's an idealism in which, you're creating this joy now, but one day you hope to. In perhaps the same way to how I hope Petra Nemcova will come to seek my advice. Hopefully someday soon.

I'd also ask you, are you aware that most of the time the people most active and able to generate good feelings in others, are quite often not the ones feeling those feelings themselves?

A friend of mine put this pretty well in school. He was by far the funniest person in the class. He's even demi-famous, he has never been in the paper or on TV but he has such a reputation by word of mouth people who come from out of town (population 200,000) have heard of him.

He just said to me one day "Who's making me laugh?"

Nobody.