 spiritual world confusing me.
i said a while ago i was exploring my beliefs, well the last few weeks i'd had no clear spritual experiences and i was trying so hard. But i had also stopped praying, i gave thanks and that but wasn't really trying to communicate with God like i used to, i just meditated with the purpose of seeing somthing spiritual.
Then the last few days i've had a few personal problems and last night was the first time i'd had a hearty pray in long time, i cried and just let it all out.
then tried to go asleep, and the minute I switched my light off my room was a light with glows,flashes you name it more than had ever
happend before the amazing bit was a blue light that appeared the size of a fist that went from like deep blue to indigo IT WAS SOOO CLEAR!
what confuses me is i wasn't trying to see anything and it just happened, when before i was trying to a couldn't, whats with that?
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