Yay for you Eva!
It sounds like you are courageously making changes in your life that bring you into greater alignment with your authentic self.
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Originally Posted by evacorges  It is as though our relationship seemed good when life was somber and difficult for me. Now I am enjoying life more, is seems to put my relationship in a different light and I catch myself thinking that I would not choose this partner if I had to make a choice today. |
As you're seeing, often it is our closest relationships that are most resistant to our change. The people we think would be the first to join us in celebrating our new discoveries are growling and grumbling. Which makes sense when you think about it. Your relationship with your husband has had a certain definition. He is this way and you are that way and everyone knows what to expect out of everyone else. Then there you go - redefining yourself! Heading off down a path that's not on the map! (Go girl!
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Redefining yourself isn't just about you. It redefines your relationship as well. This challenges not only what he's always known (and expects) you to be, but
who he is within the relationship. So now your changes are placing a requirement of change in his life.
In addition to that dynamic, which as vera says, may adjust in time, consider that your thoughts of choosing a different partner if you had the chance, interjects an energy into your marriage that affects all three of you. You, him, and the entity of your relationship.
I absolutely encourage you to keep with the forward momentum you have going. Perhaps in time, with increased awareness all around, your marriage will find contentment in its new definition.
Good luck!