Silvia Hartman has written about 'guiding stars' an experience that was so intense and out of normal experience that it shoots way out of our energy system and is like a guiding star that we follow.
It's like our system instead of saying 'wow, what a great experience, I didn't know I could feel that way, I'll look forward to loads more experiences like that in the future' says instead:
' wow, what a great and one-off experience - nothing that good will ever happen to me again, so i will spend the rest of my life trying to recreate it. It will only happen with that exact same person, in the exact same situation.'
Notice you even say 'I don't want it for me now, I want it for the 22 year old me.' You are trying to freeze the experience in time.
Yes you can get over it, but you will probably feel a lot of resistance as the thoughts are so wonderful even though they are painful.
Silvia writes about them in 'the advanced patterns of EFT' with a strong warning not to tackle on your own as self healing - but to work with someone experienced in this issue. When you dismantle a guiding star, especially a long established one you have to know what you are doing and what to replace it with.
wishing you the best of luck with your journey
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