Everybody's the person who said they'd never put up with that. The abuser systematically over time trains you to believe that you deserve his treatment, and that all your instincts are wrong. That is how he controls you. There is nothing wrong with you.
Please contact
The National Domestic Violence Hotline immediately, Michelle. They will help you do what it takes to feel strong and safe. Please do not wait until you have lost what's most valuable to you before you make this move, Michelle -- please contact them right away.
Lots of love and courage to you,
Angela