You might want to reframe the experience. It wasn't "bad" except that you judge it as bad; you were not "leaking" energy; you were generating and sharing energy.
The good news is that you are not diminished by spilling your energy all over the universe. You can spill and spill and spill your energy every day, like Niagara Falls, and what you're doing is creating something wonderful for the world and for yourself. You are a supreme example of delightful abundance in the world. You have plenty of power to practice any sort of energy manipulation you desire to experiment with -- you are an overflowing fountain of bright golden light, and you can boldly flow, letting go of any fear of being diminished. |