It sounds like you're having some doubts about about where your passion lies. Personally, I've gone through that myself.
I think that what you're thinking is that because you've wanted to be this writer you've always dreamed of being since you sealed the deal when you were young, it's not only what you were meant to do, but what you're supposed to do.
But as you grew, you went through a lot of things and you changed, it happens, lets face it. And as you went through these changes you lost sight more and more of what you wanted to be and had an interest in for so long, but you constantly revisited those times when you were sure it was what you wanted. But the point is you
grew up, and as we all do these changes simply must occur whether we like it or not.
You obviously feel that because as time went on you're not that kid you used to be, and that you are basically
forcing yourself to be inspired again so you don't let that person who used to be there down. But you cannot
force a passion or inspiration, trust me, I've tried.
Yet it remains that the fact that you
don't want to let go of writing simply states that you still love it, but because you have no direct muse at the moment you feel its gone, but it's not. Don't go looking for stories, you just have to live, because almost all great writers take from their lives in their writing, and the stories will come to you, and trust me, everyone has something to say.
Don't think just because its not the only thing in your life right now like it may have been when you were younger that you no longer love it. But as I wrote too many times (but it's true!), we
change as we
grow, lots of people have become lost trying to figure out what it was they were supposed to do, and maybe there's more for you to do than
just writing, but that does not mean you're letting yourself down.
