All I can say is that I am not particularly fond of colleges as they do not usually offer the support you need to figure out these problems and they would actually prefer it if you did not pass all of your classes, so that you would have to take them over again, meaning they would get more money. You say you're stressed over grades, but grades don't really matter that much if you look at the big picture. And some professors are so damn intolerant to new ideas and will dismiss them, as it is convenient to do so instead of actually taking in these ideas. Not only that, they feed you things from a textbook and then expect you to know these things, even if they are in no way accurate or do not resonate with you. I don't know what it is, but when I was in college for about a year and a half, I felt completely and utterly restricted and every decision was magnified, as it would contribute to my future, and I don't want to say the college mindset is close-minded, but it sort of is. All these courses they MAKE you take for no real reason, where you don't learn anything, but still have to fork over the extra thousands of dollars to pay for them. Although a degree looks great in the external world, if it does not resonate with your internal world, then perhaps it is not worth pursuing any further, at least at this time.
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