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Originally Posted by Joely  Go within, and find you. Start developing a relationship, a deep loving relationship with the person you are. And you'll find out how great you are, and how well you deserve to be treated. Because people will only treat you as well as you treat yourself. You are brave and courageous and you'll start to see it all for yourself when you take the time to get to really know you, rather than looking at other people and trying to find the love you want there. |
God yes.
All the major changes in my life started when I turned my sight inwards and asked: who I am? what do I want? what do I need? If there was noone else in this world, who/what/how would I be?
You can't (or can) imagine how terrified I was when I understood that I can't answer ANY of these questions. I was completely captured in the loop of outside influences, outside meanings, outside definitions. They gave meaning to my life. What others did, what others wanted. The stacks of old abuse were largely defining my behavior and the stacks of new abuse only condoned my view on life where I was worthless, always doomed to please others and live for others, because that was the only thing I felt good enough for - living for others, giving away everything, always bending to their wishes.
If I imagined myself alone in this world, none of it made sense. At all whatsoever. And step by step I started to discover myself. I tell you, I made some stunning discoveries about myself, particularly considering that I have lived with myself 26 years already. And it changed my life completely in a relatively short time. I found a wonderful source of power within me and I am never letting anyone take it away from me.
That said, none of those were easy changes. I went through a lot emotionally. I still learn to live this way. And I think that you are on the same path now, uberinquisitive. And trust me when I say: loving yourself is the most beautiful love you will discover in your life.