Originally Posted by lightthecandle
my relationship with myself is terrible. I have so much self hate and anger towards myself I don't know what to do with myself. I'm trying to love myself, I really am, i'm reading books on raising self esteem, seeing my therapist, taking my meds, talking to people but nothing. NOTHING , seems to be working I've read so much personal development stuff over the years, but I still feel like garbage. I don't know what else to do I just feel so hopeless
oh, i should have read this 1st...
ok, make the decision to be a happy person. no matter how much it HURTS (yes, it does) to tear yourself away from being subservient to the world by depending on it. sometimes painful things are better than a long, dreary, ♥♥♥♥♥♥, life of depression and self hate.
find SUPPORT. not in the way of dependence, but just a community of people you know you can trust to lend a sympathetic ear when you need to vent frustrations and mentors to give you good advice along the way. if you don't have a family member or close friends who can offer this, there are community organizations and groups you should get involved with.
just the fact that you are HERE is an AWESOME step in the right direction!
*remember all the great things you wanted to be as a kid, get out there and DO it and finding a guy that will be all head over heels in love with you will take care of itself*