I'm so sorry that you're mom abuses you like that backpocket. But the best way to counter this entire life lie you are living is tell the truth to the authorities. Afterall, it is the 21st century! Then you won't have to lie.
I'll tell you the truth... I feel horrible after telling a lie. LOL! I sit there and go over in my mind WHY I lied. Then I try to correct it. If I don't ,I feel really crappy. Of course there's nobody threatening to beat me anymore but it wasn't always this way, and I think that's why I tolerate lies so much. I grew up living one!
Anyway, those people who were lying to me, I have since told to sod off. In the end, the only thing they did was lie. They did absolutely nothing that they promised they would do. But I got out of the deal and at least they aren't wasting my time any longer. Whether or not I hold on to my resentment towards them is another matter I have to deal with, and ultimately, totally my own responsibility.
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