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Originally Posted by Angela  "Here" with me? or here in these forums, or here in his relationship, or here in this world, or here in the mind you're in?
Maybe you were looking for comfort. There are plenty of people here (in these forums) who will give you that, don't worry. But trying to be comfortable is what has you feeling stuck. Discomfort in your situation is a real gift! Discomfort is a great impetus to take inspired action.
You posted here, asking for help in working this through. "Through" is the operative word -- the way to the other side is through. If you hadn't been ready, I don't think you would have started this thread -- it shows that you are summoning the boldness and the courage to go through your life with responsibility and extraordinary willingness.
Trust seems to be most inspiring possibility here for you: here with me, here on these forums, here in this world, here in your own mind, for yourself. Trust, baby. It's worth generating! |
I agree that I've been looking for peace and comfort over real solutions for a loooong time now too.
I read a quote (posted on this forum I think) that went along the lines of...
"people tend not tochange until the pain of change is less than the pain of staying the same"
wherever that came from, that described my situation very well. I refused to face myself and change for the longest time because deep down I believed the pain I was experiencing from my denial was nothing compared to how painful it would be to face the truth. I'm amazed by how unconscious that decision was and I've only begun waking up by realizing that as I keep myself in a dimmed state of resistance, I am denying everything that I and my life could be. I'm saddened by how long it took to me to come to this point but I know that it is genuine just by the energy and power I've suddenly been graced with in being able to communicate myself.
before I came to the decision to grow and learn from this, I was in a state of deep depression and trying desperately to hide it from the world and myself. I couldn't even carry on a real conversation and everything I did, all the choices that I "made" were pretend.