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Originally Posted by Angela  p.s.... consider that your fear of him suffering the loss of you is really projected fear in the mirror. Your real fear is that you would not survive the loss of him, isn't it? |
yes... yes. you're right about that one.
that right there is a prime example of one of the ways I avoid taking responsibility for myself by focusing my power outside into situations that I can't control.
I don't really want to let myself know if I want to leave or not. My feelings and thoughts are so entangled and intense. it's much simpler if I stop looking at it like a relationship issue, and more of a "what do I need to do for myself?" issue.
The reason I come to the conclusion that leaving is the right decision is because I know I need to come to terms with myself and the ways in which I behave in order to live in a way I can respect myself for.
and I know it's not going to be easy, having already taken little glimpses into my pandoras box. I'm going to need every bit of support that I can get from sources that I know I can trust.
...and I don't think I can find that here.
