Ok, thanks again
, you made me laugh "Acting like Godot", and your good boosting peoples confidence too
I think thats one of the reason for why i have such a hard time admiting i have low self confidence and low self steem problems, because at the same time i have high self steem and high confidence, but when it relates to personal relationships and trully opening myself, then my confidence drops to zero, it was hard to admit it beacause of this!, we humans are not like mathematical formulas!, we are trully complicated... my father used to call me "filth"(thats not all though), you cant expect that not to have consecuences on a poor child, i mean that by saying that it surely sticks to ones mind even after you grow up, but, he also was a child!, he had no childhood in fact he worked all his life even as a young 12 year old kid, i dont know him very well because he has this cronic anger problem, he is so closed even among his family, he surely has low self steem too, but why should i keep angry with him?, he has been so hurt in his life that he is unable to
realize he can overcome his problems, he is such a small and coward man, i pity him, but at the same time, since he hasnt changed very much, he still treats his family in a wrong way, and all the times i try to speak with him, he gives stupid excuses, he says hes too old to change, he denies obvious things that he allways does that i dont know what to do with him other than to get away from him, not because i hate him, but because he hurts everyone around him and he is a bad influence to me, i wish i could help him, but i dont know how... my brother (my mother too) is a victim of him too, and we have similar problems.
Thanks again everyone, you are really nice people