Going off on a mini-vacation does sound appealing.
However, I always do this. I'm always moving around, trying to avoid dealing with stuff. I wonder if it's about time that I stand my ground.
I've been using Tolle's suggestions of observing the pain-body. It's been a freaky experience.
I'm sitting at a table, and across from me is an empty chair. Sitting in it, I can almost see "me" - not the ego me, but the deep, authentic, "core" me. She's dressed like me, looks like me.
She just looks at me, with a lot of compassion. And I can see what she sees - this demon going in and out of me. This demon also looks like me, but is almost transparent, and has a menacing look in its eyes.
Tolle says to just observe the "demon" without judgement or labels. And, also to observe the observer. Basically, be super aware and totally in the Now.
How is it working for me? Well, I stopped my uncontrollable crying. It started again once I started thinking of worst case scenerios, but then I snapped my attention back to watching "Core" Uber observing the demon. And the tears immediately stopped.
I'm now reading chapter 2 of "The Power of Now" and it's amazing just how deeply I identify with my mind/ego. I mean, all these years when I thought I was a self-aware person...I was really very self-aware of my ego!
Even now, although I have been watching
Oprah's webinar with Tolle and reading "The Power of Now" and "New Earth" I still find myself clinging to the ego and pain-body. And, I judge myself for it. Total ego. Total frustration because I want all this pain to go away, right now. I'm so impatient to be "cured."