 Sick of the Student Role
I am stuck.
I feel no motivation anymore to please any of my professors or do anything which I don't feel good about doing or which seems to have no purpose. I told my professor today that I will not perform next week in a concert at school because of needing quiet time and not seeing the point of doing it.
This has left me laying on my couch doing nothing for the past two weeks, waiting for some real Source centered motivation to arrive. It feels so strange, because I have actually identified my purpose. Part of me wonders if this is some dramatic ending of Lightworker Syndrome.
I feel so angry about not being able to stand up for myself in the face of my school and professor. I feel so angry about not taking what I want seriously. I am sick of people telling me what is realistic instead of listening inside myself about what is realistic for me.
It has gotten to the point where I am considering dropping out one year before my Masters.
Any advice or thoughts would be appreciated.
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