freddy,
Thankx freddy for your reply. I guess my fear of TIME/Ageing and regrets got to me yesterday.
Today, I realised i should treasure my youth more and experience more in life. I was kicking myself coz my fear and shyness was an absolute waste of time. I should go out there and enjoy more. Yup, i m afraid of ageing coz i m afraid of dying, i m afraid of death coz I feel i havent lived. Now, at the age of 22. I have made a conscious decision not to look back when I m 30 and say that i wasted my precious twenties being miserable. In the end of the day, life is short.
Today, i m alot happy, i went out for a few drinks with my friends, i decided to text a few friends to go celebrate for my belated birthday eventhough, initially i thought they'll probably wont go.
It turns out, about 10 friends came; more than i expected. I was really happy. It wasnt as bad as i thought. In my life, i always feel very insignificant. Today, I realised, i shouldnt be afraid of rejection and I m glad i realised, i m not young forever and i should have a good time from now. onwards.  |