Today is my b-day. I m 22 now. I never really like birthday, each year I hated the fact that I m getting older, less attractive, more worries and more responsiblities, more grown up, more career oriented.
I just wish i m not an adult. Being 21 is way so much cooler and sounds alot younger and alot fun than 22. I never enjoyed my Birthyday eversince i was a teen. I dont know what is wrong with me. I always feel like an old lady on birthday, i just cant seemed to lighten up and enjoy being older each year. I never have a huge birthday celebration like my other friends with money , they can invite friends and throw huge parties at home. My family just wont allow me to have a party at home. Also, i dont like to call my friends out to celebrate for me coz i m afraid they wont show up and that they wont enjoy it.I dont have many friends too. I feel lonely on my birthday. Each year i celebrate my birthday with my family but now this year, I spent my day with my sis and bro.
I have so much insecurities on my birthday, so many issues arises on birthday, I start to evaluate my life and think about my progress and meaning of my 22 years of existence. Also, I m still single, i feel extremely scared coz i m afraid i wont be able to find someone. In 5 more years, most people will be married at around 27 yrs old.
I dont like ageing, yet i know its inevitable. I remember when i was a child, i loved n enjoyed birthday. I think my biggest problem is now as an adult, i HATE TIME AND HATE AGEING. I wish i can go back to being a young teen with no worries and less responsiblity. Being an adult suck.
Hope, some of you could share your true feelings and good/bad experiences with birthday.
Need some advice to overcome these issues arises on my b-day
Like: the FEAR OF AGEING, The quater life crisis, LIFE IS short and I wont live forever. FEAR OF BEING ALONE and Regrets of not enjoying my teen. Fear of the future etc.
