[manjit]

Hello friends. I am new to this forum.

My name is Manjit. I do not like the way people and I take my name. To tell you the truth, I have met just two people, who when addressed me with my name, I felt proud of my name. One was my former institute's counsellor and the other was my ex-employer. And I talked these two persons just 4-5 times. And I do not have much contact with them right now.

Do I have an inferiority complex with my name? When I was at school people found it very difficult to pronounce my name. That made me feel scared. I was a timid kid, though I had lots of confidence in my abilities. I thought I could do everything...from studies... to sports.... to being mischievous. But there has always been something that I was scared of...I doubt if it was my name...

Another instrospection- I feel quite comfortable in forums when I have a different username. I write genuinely. Whenever I have contributed to any forum with a different name, I can express myself in a better way, I can help people generously, and I have gained appreciation as well. On the contrary, when I use my real name, that is, Manjit.....I am stuck....I cannot write what I think....I cannot offer my help to anyone....I fear that my post will not be liked by someone, and I have actually got some replies that proved it. Actually its not they, its my post where I cannot write what I want to and people misinterpret/misunderstand that.

Another piece of information - I also fear that I might be found on the web if I use my original name, though I have gathered enough courage to post this today with my name. I do not want anyone to know what advice or conversation I have with others. I want to maintain relationships on a one-to-one basis. I sometimes think what kind of a person I am? I am 29 years old....old enough...half of the life is gone...and still I have not accepted my name????

I wonder how people can be so open on the web...I have my friends who have joined social networking sites....but I have not....

Let me tell you - I do have many friends, well wishers and admirers....I am very comfortable when talking with people....I am very open with my friends.......but when it comes to the internet...my approach becomes totally different.

I am:
1.Best comfortable - On the internet with a different username.
2.Comfortable - Face to face conversation with people.
3.Least comfortable - On the internet with my original name.

I want to feel proud of myself and of my name.