Wow. That's incredible. Congratulations on such a profound development!
What is this "void"? My question is this: I used to take vicodin recreationally...not good, I know, but one day I took it successively, as often as it said was healthy (for someone with a broken hand, of course), and by the end of the day, I was feeling lightheaded, and collapsed on the bed so as not to faint. What happened was I was forever in black, like I was consciously unconscious...like, I felt unconscious and was in black, but my mind was awake. I was like this for what seemed to be a long, long time (probably a couple minutes though) and then forced myself to open my eyes and eventually to call out my boyfriend's name.
But it was weird--like I couldn't get back 'here.' Of course, I know this could purely be physical, and I was f***ed up, but it was an extremely scary experience. I didn't calm down for about an hour after that.
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