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robc · 03-05-2008, 07:31 PM

I've been learning about LOA and intention manifestation for the past couple of months but never actually put any thought or energy into attempting any of it. Being new to this, the skeptic in me at the time didn't believe fully in the power that we apparently have access to.

A few weeks ago I read a bit more about intention manifestation specifically from this site (which I found by accident, funny how that works) and I attempted a few.

I won't go into specifics but the intentions involved my job, my wife (who I'm currently separated from) and money.

- The job IM was the first one. The head office in Canada of our company was downsizing and I was part of that downsizing. A job opening came up within the same company but it was for a position in the U.S. Someone told me about the position, asked me to apply, so I updated my resume & applied. To tell you the truth I was still angry with the company for the original downsizing, wasn't sure if I wanted to work for this company anymore, and second, the ideal candidate would be someone working in the U.S. so I knew pretty much I wouldn't get it but I was given an interview and I gave it my all and presented myself as professionally as possible. Here's the clincher, I knew for a fact that there were other people within the company applying for this position, working out of the U.S. with better qualifications/experience. I told myself, "you watch, you'll get the job even though I don't even want it" (and technically I did want it, I was just still miffed at the original dismissal and the severance pkg, etc. I have a family to support so I obviously need a job). Go figure, 2+ weeks later, the position is offered to me, with greater pay & benefits, allowing me to work remotely from my location instead of out of the U.S. I believe this happened because I actually believed it would, I actually said to myself "you watch, you'll get this job even though you don't even want it". I wasn't even attempting to manifest my intention, just believing it would happen made it happen - that was the scary part. I didn't ask the universe to "make it so" but maybe I did inadvertantly.

- Concerning my wife who I'm separated from, I made several intentions in my mind to get her to start being my friend again. We have children so we have kept our relationship "civil" for their benefit. I still love her very much, we have had a very rocky relationship mostly because of my own personal problems which I recently took responsibility for. It took a while to wrap my head around this concept but it doesn't matter what happened in your past, it doesn't give you an excuse to behave badly, live unhappily and treat other people poorly - I am responsible for my own actions and I don't have justification for my actions because of rotten childhood. I've lived a long & mostly unhappy life because of child sex abuse issues that I never wanted to deal with, being a man I felt that I had to keep this secret inside of me and deal with my pain internally forever. When you've been abused as a child in that kind of way from your father, it pretty much sets you up for life with a crappy outlook, never feeling you're worth it, always believing things are your fault, believing that you don't deserve good things in life, never being able to ask for help, feeling of self-hate, etc.

- I believe now that manifested the life that I have lived for the past 30 years because thats all I deserved and I also believed I didn't deserve the wife I love & married and I believed one day she would leave me. Those were my intentions and I manifested them and provided for the most part an unhappy life for both of us. I only revealed this secret to her 2 years ago and she tried to stick with me but I couldn't get myself to admit this someone else (a counsellor/therapist, etc.) and because I wouldn't get help for my problems, she left. I don't fault her for her decision, in the end it's the reality I manifested for us and specifically myself.

- When we finally separated I hit rock bottom, it was either sink or swim and I was tired of always receiving the worst life could offer me. Something told me I deserved better (maybe the voice was always there, I just refused to believe it). I've been seeing a therapist for the past 3 months, he's a man and I feel comfortable talking to him because he's a past abuse survivor as well. The therapy is liberating and I feel happier now than I have in years and no more anti-depressants. I wanted help, I wanted the courage to ask for help and the determination to stick with the therapy and those things finally manifested themselves in my life. It took 30 long years to get to this point but I don't think I ever honestly asked to get help before, I never believe I was allowed to get help, didn't think I deserved it and now I realize that I do deserve to get help and I do deserve good things in my life.

Back to my wife who I'm separated from. I started thinking about how great it would be to talk to my wife again like we were friends and how much I would really enjoy it - we've been married so long and we haven't spoken like friends for what seems like forever. Since the middle of february we've talking like we're friends again, discussing the kids, work, our workouts at the gym, etc. It just happened, one day we were just civil and one day we just started talking & smiling again and believe me, it had been so long since we've ever talked like this that it seems quite miraculous. We haven't reconciled but is that the kind of intention I can attempt to manifest. If the life I'm living now is the reality I choose to live in and I realize now that I create my reality with my thoughts & beliefs and take into account I'm a total noob when it comes to intention manifestation and LOA. (another question related to this, at the same time my intention manifestations with regards to my wife were happening she seemed to experience alot of physical exhaustion at the same time, I hope I'm not sucking the life force out of her for lack of a better explanation because my IM is forcing her to be nice to me again - maybe that's a dumb question, again I'm a noob at all of this.).

Since this started happening and my IM's seemed to be manifesting, I said to myself why I do have to work hard at my job, why I can't I just believe that I can earn an income or be wealthy without having to work? Who wouldn't want to win the lottery. The local lottery was for $4 million and I said that I would like to win the lottery, I imagined how my life would be with all that money, I imagined also helping family & friends by paying off their debts, mortgages, giving them some spending cash too, taking care of my in-laws who are such great grandparents to my children, wanting to make them rich also, etc. I get in my car and start driving (to my wife's home, she called me because the kids were at their grandparents and she felt like having some supper with me) and the radio announcement of a totally unrelated product started mentioning a price of a certain product several times ($6.49), this also happens to be the same name as the lottery I wanted to win, the 6/49 - I guess this would be called a syncronicity? (not sure but it felt like a bit of a coincidence), is this telling me to buy the lottery tickets, I've never been one to buy lottery tickets on a regular basis, should I be believing that this could really happen? (maybe that's the problem, I still don't believe I deserve this?)

Part of feeling better about myself has always been my poor body image. I've always wanted a great beach body, something I could be proud of. I finally got off my duff and I joined a gym, I've been eating a cleaner diet and I feel great about myself, I wear clothes & styles that I would never fit or look good in. All in all, lately these past few months have been a total 180 from the past few years. Is this all due to intention manifestation, believing I deserve to be happy and allowing myself to be happy and all these good things are happening to me?

Brings me to the question, if I start asking for everything under the sun will that diminish the power of my IM, should I only be focusing on 1 or 2 things instead of 10,20 or 100 different things that I would want in my life?

Sorry for the long winded post, things have been so exciting lately (as opposed to being horrible for too many years) that it's hard to contain myself.

Any feedback/comments/answers would be appreciated. Thank You!!!

03-05-2008, 07:31 PM	#1 (permalink)
robc Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: Canada Posts: 298	Am I being greedy with intention manifestation? I've been learning about LOA and intention manifestation for the past couple of months but never actually put any thought or energy into attempting any of it. Being new to this, the skeptic in me at the time didn't believe fully in the power that we apparently have access to. A few weeks ago I read a bit more about intention manifestation specifically from this site (which I found by accident, funny how that works) and I attempted a few. I won't go into specifics but the intentions involved my job, my wife (who I'm currently separated from) and money. - The job IM was the first one. The head office in Canada of our company was downsizing and I was part of that downsizing. A job opening came up within the same company but it was for a position in the U.S. Someone told me about the position, asked me to apply, so I updated my resume & applied. To tell you the truth I was still angry with the company for the original downsizing, wasn't sure if I wanted to work for this company anymore, and second, the ideal candidate would be someone working in the U.S. so I knew pretty much I wouldn't get it but I was given an interview and I gave it my all and presented myself as professionally as possible. Here's the clincher, I knew for a fact that there were other people within the company applying for this position, working out of the U.S. with better qualifications/experience. I told myself, "you watch, you'll get the job even though I don't even want it" (and technically I did want it, I was just still miffed at the original dismissal and the severance pkg, etc. I have a family to support so I obviously need a job). Go figure, 2+ weeks later, the position is offered to me, with greater pay & benefits, allowing me to work remotely from my location instead of out of the U.S. I believe this happened because I actually believed it would, I actually said to myself "you watch, you'll get this job even though you don't even want it". I wasn't even attempting to manifest my intention, just believing it would happen made it happen - that was the scary part. I didn't ask the universe to "make it so" but maybe I did inadvertantly. - Concerning my wife who I'm separated from, I made several intentions in my mind to get her to start being my friend again. We have children so we have kept our relationship "civil" for their benefit. I still love her very much, we have had a very rocky relationship mostly because of my own personal problems which I recently took responsibility for. It took a while to wrap my head around this concept but it doesn't matter what happened in your past, it doesn't give you an excuse to behave badly, live unhappily and treat other people poorly - I am responsible for my own actions and I don't have justification for my actions because of rotten childhood. I've lived a long & mostly unhappy life because of child sex abuse issues that I never wanted to deal with, being a man I felt that I had to keep this secret inside of me and deal with my pain internally forever. When you've been abused as a child in that kind of way from your father, it pretty much sets you up for life with a crappy outlook, never feeling you're worth it, always believing things are your fault, believing that you don't deserve good things in life, never being able to ask for help, feeling of self-hate, etc. - I believe now that manifested the life that I have lived for the past 30 years because thats all I deserved and I also believed I didn't deserve the wife I love & married and I believed one day she would leave me. Those were my intentions and I manifested them and provided for the most part an unhappy life for both of us. I only revealed this secret to her 2 years ago and she tried to stick with me but I couldn't get myself to admit this someone else (a counsellor/therapist, etc.) and because I wouldn't get help for my problems, she left. I don't fault her for her decision, in the end it's the reality I manifested for us and specifically myself. - When we finally separated I hit rock bottom, it was either sink or swim and I was tired of always receiving the worst life could offer me. Something told me I deserved better (maybe the voice was always there, I just refused to believe it). I've been seeing a therapist for the past 3 months, he's a man and I feel comfortable talking to him because he's a past abuse survivor as well. The therapy is liberating and I feel happier now than I have in years and no more anti-depressants. I wanted help, I wanted the courage to ask for help and the determination to stick with the therapy and those things finally manifested themselves in my life. It took 30 long years to get to this point but I don't think I ever honestly asked to get help before, I never believe I was allowed to get help, didn't think I deserved it and now I realize that I do deserve to get help and I do deserve good things in my life. Back to my wife who I'm separated from. I started thinking about how great it would be to talk to my wife again like we were friends and how much I would really enjoy it - we've been married so long and we haven't spoken like friends for what seems like forever. Since the middle of february we've talking like we're friends again, discussing the kids, work, our workouts at the gym, etc. It just happened, one day we were just civil and one day we just started talking & smiling again and believe me, it had been so long since we've ever talked like this that it seems quite miraculous. We haven't reconciled but is that the kind of intention I can attempt to manifest. If the life I'm living now is the reality I choose to live in and I realize now that I create my reality with my thoughts & beliefs and take into account I'm a total noob when it comes to intention manifestation and LOA. (another question related to this, at the same time my intention manifestations with regards to my wife were happening she seemed to experience alot of physical exhaustion at the same time, I hope I'm not sucking the life force out of her for lack of a better explanation because my IM is forcing her to be nice to me again - maybe that's a dumb question, again I'm a noob at all of this.). Since this started happening and my IM's seemed to be manifesting, I said to myself why I do have to work hard at my job, why I can't I just believe that I can earn an income or be wealthy without having to work? Who wouldn't want to win the lottery. The local lottery was for $4 million and I said that I would like to win the lottery, I imagined how my life would be with all that money, I imagined also helping family & friends by paying off their debts, mortgages, giving them some spending cash too, taking care of my in-laws who are such great grandparents to my children, wanting to make them rich also, etc. I get in my car and start driving (to my wife's home, she called me because the kids were at their grandparents and she felt like having some supper with me) and the radio announcement of a totally unrelated product started mentioning a price of a certain product several times ($6.49), this also happens to be the same name as the lottery I wanted to win, the 6/49 - I guess this would be called a syncronicity? (not sure but it felt like a bit of a coincidence), is this telling me to buy the lottery tickets, I've never been one to buy lottery tickets on a regular basis, should I be believing that this could really happen? (maybe that's the problem, I still don't believe I deserve this?) Part of feeling better about myself has always been my poor body image. I've always wanted a great beach body, something I could be proud of. I finally got off my duff and I joined a gym, I've been eating a cleaner diet and I feel great about myself, I wear clothes & styles that I would never fit or look good in. All in all, lately these past few months have been a total 180 from the past few years. Is this all due to intention manifestation, believing I deserve to be happy and allowing myself to be happy and all these good things are happening to me? Brings me to the question, if I start asking for everything under the sun will that diminish the power of my IM, should I only be focusing on 1 or 2 things instead of 10,20 or 100 different things that I would want in my life? Sorry for the long winded post, things have been so exciting lately (as opposed to being horrible for too many years) that it's hard to contain myself. Any feedback/comments/answers would be appreciated. Thank You!!! Last edited by robc; 03-05-2008 at 07:34 PM.