Dear J,
I often feel the way you do. I also strive to tell myself, I am an ok person. I grew up abused as well, among other things.....
I think it is just a work in process. Feeling like your not good enough and that you are a bad person. I know this feeling well. Not sure if this helps you, but I do know where you are comming from. Reading all of these posts from others actually helps alot (I find). Being shunned from parents etc. Just try to keep going. Tell yourself it is okay. Glad your going to seek help. I also went to get help a few years ago. The end result being, I still have alot of learning and growing to do. Learning to accept yourself for whom you are is a challenge. Some days will be good and others will be hard. Just keep plugging away. Try reading some good books that help you to understand yourself a little more...
Blessings to you
Masya
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