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Originally Posted by Angela  Nope, that's absolutely clear. Great work. It's true that you're worthless and bad. Now, can you absolutely know that is true? Is it possible to be sure that you're worthless and bad?
(this may be sounding familiar to you!) |
Yes it does. I often wish I could call Katie up and have her talk some sense into me!
When I think about that question I see all the people I went to school with, and how hard it was for them, and my heart just breaks for them. And for my brother. I feel horrible to say anything other than that I'm worthless. Does that make sense? I'm trying to relate a kind of honest reaction because it's not that easy to answer. I can feel a huge attachment to worthlessness and badness, it obviously has powerful meaning to me or I wouldn't be so keen to firmly hold on to it even when it starts destroying my life! Worthlessness is heavy and reassuring - it's very safe. There is a huge part of me that just wants to say "Yes!" even though I'm trying hard to come up with a "No." Heck, the lawyer inside me is even gathering evidence as we speak.
