I don't believe you're imagining these empathetic connections, but I know how you must feel. It just seems crazy to get these feelings and thoughts coming from other people.
And still if you don't live your life with the understanding that there are these kind of empathetic connections, you do feel crazy as well, cause you have thoughts and emotions running through you all of a sudden which, if you pay attention and have reached a certain level of self awareness, just don't seem your own.
What bugs me is that with some people this connection seems to be online all the time, and the only thing that happens when I don't keep an eye on it, these other thoughts and emotions just sneak in and present themselves as my own.
I guess on a basic level it's still difficult for me to understand why another person's thoughts and emotions should come sneaking into my life experience time and again, why I should be forced to either share another one's life in this way whether I like it or not, or run around with a consciously held up protective psychic shield all the time.
And another thing, in case of believing of having unconsciously shared another one's life experience on such a soul energy level maybe all your life, putting a block up between the two of you consciously does feel a little like being parted from your daemon in the Philip Pullmann books.
And then if it's all about connectedness and being one than putting an effort to separating myself from another soul on a level I can't even understand for real, feels like the last thing to do. Though admittedly it's not always the most pleasant experience to get that sort of inflow, I just feel there must be another and better way to deal with this than to cut yourself of from it.
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