Isnt the concept of "soulmates" a matter of belief though? Obviously some believe in it 100%,others believe it cant be possible since your soul lives many lives,,yet others believe there is no such thing at all! I guess my next step is to get a pychic reading to get a professional's opinion about it. But then there will always be other pychics who would say something different! lol I feel like a ping pong ball,bouncing from one corner to another,never sure what to believe in anymore. I have always had a tendency to believe in miracles,magic,faith,signs,all that cool "unseen" stuff...so it is really depressing for me to consider that this stuff isnt real. I want to feel like something is MEANT for me and is going to happen. But i suppose that's taking the easy way out. I just cant help but want that magical moment where i meet "the one" and i want to know that it's coming before i get there. I guess i don't like uncertainty and thats a big no no right? lol I want to know that something that i want is coming,i dont want to live HOPING i get it but not really knowing for sure if i will. I guess its from living so long like that,that i cant trust in it anymore. Every time i see signs about a certain guy,i beleive in them,and i beleive i will be with him,and then i inevitably waste years of my life on waiting for this to happen when it never does. Ugh i hate how i really believe in things and then they dont work! This is why i got so upset this time,because i believed in this more than anything before. I guess i'll just work on myself and forget about relationships,even though by doing that,i feel like the universe will see that i'm happy alone and that isnt what i want. How do you live alone happily yet still want more,what does the universe respond to then? Ugh you'd think i would have this figured out by now,but i feel like i'm going in circles here LOL I'm sure you all are ready to slap me right off these boards LOL
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