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Originally Posted by SonoranBob  Trust me, ramming your head into a brick wall like this is no way to live.
--Bob |
I'm in agreement there. I hate being so angry with myself and my life. I wish I knew how to let this bitterness and depression go away. If I could have done it easily I would have long ago. I've never been this depressed for this long in my entire life. ("The relationship is over" may be factual, but how does that change anything?) If I'm not able to love people adequately, then what's the point. (No I'm not thinking of ending my life... but I am wondering how I got into this mess in the first place, and if there is a way I could turn my life back around.) Trust me, I didn't used to be like this. This is the worst-case scenario for me. I had four successful years in a relationship I never even dreamed was possible for me. And I'm tired of living my life the way I'm living it now. It just isn't doing me or anyone else any good. But I feel stuck, like you said ramming my head against the wall. That's how I feel about EVERYTHING in my life right now.