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Originally Posted by Chado2423  She's the person I love and cherish more than anything in the world; which is why I wanted to make things up to her. |
Aw, c'mon, guy. Work with me here. No one's arguing that you didn't have all your eggs in her basket. What's that got to do with the central issue, which is that if you don't stop obsessing about it and let go, you will spend the rest of your life wringing your hands like this.
You have given her all your power. If she refuses to forgive you then you your life is over. Indeed, she may be doing this just because she knows it's twisting the knife.
You don't need her forgiveness. It'd be nice, but you don't need it. Forgive yourself, and move on. And quit telling yourself that you don't know what to do. Everyone here is in remarkable agreement with their advice. You have the power to believe and think anything you choose.
If you want to fish for advice you're willing to hear and follow, you're going to have to go someplace else to do it, because I don't think the advice you're getting here is going to change.
--Bob