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Originally Posted by Chado2423  How can I be a good friend to myself, knowing I've left a damaged relationship in my past? I feel so terrible... I feel so worthless. I've ruined the best relationship I've ever had... and I'm just supposed to let it go, without doing anything to make it better? |
You've "ruined" the best relationship you've had
so far . And yes, sometimes the best way to make reparations is to make them on your own. It sounds to me that your ex wants (at least for now), to be left alone by you. Can't you honor that wish from her?
I will not tell you what I think you "should" do, but possibly you could do some amazing growing from this experience. You could turn the feelings of worthlessness and failure around and use them as tools to point you in the direction that you want to go. Figure out how it was that you acted in the past that caused you problems, and learn to behave in a way that gets you the desired reaction
from other people (not your ex). Shine your light onto your parents, your co workers, etc. Make that the way that you get your forgiveness, (internally) by learning and growing from the problem.